God:
I don't know what has brought me to this point, to talk directly to You, in this public forum, but i hope that You know it is from me to you. I guess it's just because i crave to spend more time with you, but my rational or logical or emotional being doesn't persuade me enough too.
Maybe that's what i want to talk about. I wish i could listen more to my spiritual being sometimes. I realize that a lot of what i do, at this point in my life, is based upon how i feel at the time. Thanks to You, Your Spirit is keeping me out of trouble. But I bet you're fighting pretty hard for that.
I think it's come time for me to move past that emotional/logical/rational phase of my life and lean more to the spiritual. Not saying that all those other things aren't important. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I need more time in prayer.....more time asking you for advice.....more times like this, where we can just........be.
I'd ask that you would help me with that. You have been so merciful to me throughout my whole life, and only You know where i would be without Your influence. That sounds like a scarey place. You know.....i think i focus on that too much. It sounds wierd, but i really do spend a lot of time thinking about the things i do and whether you're in them or not. Whether I am seeking you or not. But now that i look back, i can't imagine a time in my brief years as a Christian that i have consciously not wanted you around. Sure, my sin shows by my action that i deny you many times......but you've got that covered.......Christ, that's you........and i am eternally thankful.
Lord, thankyou for letting me be me. Although you know i am still trying to find out who "me" is, you have allowed me to stumble and trip and fall; but have always been there to pick me up and say "I've been here all along". Thankyou. Thankyou beyond all that i am able to say. Thankyou.
Although i dont always recognize You, know that my heart longs after You......always. May that never change. I love you Lord.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
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Praise God for your heart Brenton! He is doing great things thru you. I'll be praying for you that you will have more time w/ Him and that you will let Him shine more brightly to others in all you do...especially w/ all this basketball stuff that you are enduring.
I really enjoyed getting to spend time w/ you and Jake and getting to know you both. I hope we can keep in touch!
-Angie
P.S. Take care of that hamstring!
I love you. Thats it. I do. : )
Talk to ya later Big B.....
JC
Ya know what?? I dont care if you update or not cuz I love reading that!! That just makes me wanna run up and give you a humungous hug!! I love you BOB!! Your the coolest! (except for GOD). I think we should hang out sometime, that would be pretty sweet!!
Your beloved,
JC
Its ok an all if you dont update for awhile, but once you do, you should mention all of the cool things that you did with Jake while he was here. Oh, and did GOD do anything in Jake?? I hope he becomes a christian, that would be awesome!!!
I'll see you wednesday if you there, ok?? OK. SEE YA THEN.
JC
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